What a gift it is to be able to stay at hone with our daughter. I have to confess, most days I don't see it as bliss but more often than not, I look at it with a begrudging attitude and a survival mentality. But today, it was just different.
I not quite sure what changed in myself, perhaps it was tracing back over my Bible Study Fellowship notes from yesterday and reading again and again that attitude is everything. Whatever it was, that I might choose it again tomorrow and for every other tomorrow hence forth. Quite simply, I was humbly thankful to be the one training and teaching my daughter. I get to be the one to teach her a love of all things cooking. I get to be the one to instill in her a love of reading, of dancing, of the arts. I pray she becomes. Woman of peace, of joy, of thanksgiving, and I get to be the one to model that for her. Crazy amazing.
So it was with that mindset we began our day, taking the day slow and in our own unhurried way. I would say as an overall theme of my days in Mommy-hood thus far: they have been hurried. Quick! Get the milk so she can get back to sleep. Quick! We have to rush out and get back home so we don't miss her nap time. And quick! We have to hurry on to the next activity of the day. Quick! Or I am not going to get this chore finished in time. But today, we slowed. We tried to enter in and to do things well. We spent hours beginning our day with a breakfast picnic and reading. We laughed long over the kitchen aides we, bellies full of that delicious chocolate chip dough. We wore aprons all day. We danced and we painted. We had a tea party and went shopping in the kitchen wearing high heels. We rested.
Quite simply, I love this. I love being her Mama and though Mommy-hood is most assuredly not for the faint of heart, I wouldn't have it any other way.
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